10:45 pm While studying for my anesthesia and surgery, received a sms from my aunt.

" pls mind your words n bear the consequence b4 u wrote the blog ."

Really appreciate her reminder .

The purpose of me starting of a blog was to use it as a platform to express myself, a true myself .

All the words in the blog are just another me , but a real me , that is not usually shown to other people in my real life..

I call it an escape of the other self.
I believe that everyone needs a channel , to express him-/herself.
There are moments when I cannot tell those dirty jokes with my colleagues / family... there are moments where I can't tell my problems to my friends and family as I used to keep things to myself, especially my sadness , my worries, and my emotion , as I personally feel that even friends can be bored of my own self-pitiness ; everyone have their own problems, why do I want to burden them ? Sometimes I want to share these pieces of me with others; some times I wanted to be heard .

However, people that read blogs are different. They might be someone that you know, they might be strangers to you.. but when they read my blog, I know that these are the people who feel free and care , at least for that few minutes . I find comfort when people read my blogs or leaving comments on my blog . Thanks :D Yeah, it's you..

Of course I might not be using the proper words. Sometimes, I vent my anger on the blog, and somebody is hurt . True self.. human being , selfish... greedy... angry...sad...jerk... stupid.. smart .. clever... self-centered ... inconsiderate ... That's nature of human, regardless of the beauty / ugliness. Hence, take it seriously and easy.. It gives you a picture pieces of puzzle that forms a man; we should enjoy the art of it! (as if visiting an art gallery/ exhibition)

Anyway, this is how the blogs work , isn't it ? If you find this blog is offending you, then just leave and don't read it . Most of the bloggers, inclusive of me never point to a particular person with a real identity on the blog ; we usually talked in a very general term. Maybe we are not even talking about you at all, but if you perasan.. then I have nothing to say so. But if we are talking about you, and you realise it, maybe it's time to ponder upon the reason behind these.

No doubt that I must admit that there are people that like to blackmail the innocent one. Sometimes what the blogger says on their blogs is not true . If so, you can either clarify it in a decent way(though firing back is more " qi kek" ), or wait till the bad guys got their own punishment till the end of the day. What goes around comes around .

Or let time do its job... I always believe that the longer the time ,the better you'll know someone. As the chinese saying goes , " You' know how good(strong / powerful ??) a horse is after a long journey "

Personally feel that shouldn't stab back the bloggers... " yam yam sap sap " .... very "siu ka", it reflects on you.

Don't be sad / angry if other have prejudice on you, as those who knows you, will knows you; those who don't, merely a passenger that we meet in our life, a passenger that gives us a chance to mold and strengthen ourselves .