Today is my mom's birthday.
Mommy, missing you much.
I also wanna thank God, for His mercy , and His faithfulness.
Just got to know that my mom flew to S'pore to visit my little nephew and my dearest sis, and Dan BIL.
I was so upset the past few weeks, I thought that mom wouldn't have the chance to do it so , as there was some emergency at home.
Then, things turn out so right, but God just like to keep it as a surprise to me!
My aunt took the initiative to invite my mom to fly to Singapore with her, and she assured her that Gran would be fine as other uncles and aunties would take good care of her.
Never cease to believe in the "goodness " in people. It's a lesson that my God teaches me .
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Saturday, January 19, 2008
A Living Prayer
By Alison Krauss
In this world I walk alone
With no place to call my home
But there's one who holds my hand
The rugged road through barren lands
The way is dark, the road is steep
But He's become my eyes to see
The strength to climb, my griefs to bear
The Savior lives inside me there
In Your love I find release
A haven from my unbelief
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee
In these trials of life I find
Another voice inside my mind
He comforts me and bids me live
Inside the love the Father gives
In Your love I find release
A haven from my unbelief
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee
I am weary, and so I lay me head on Your hands.
Let me be.. let me be.. the one you want me to be.
In this world I walk alone
With no place to call my home
But there's one who holds my hand
The rugged road through barren lands
The way is dark, the road is steep
But He's become my eyes to see
The strength to climb, my griefs to bear
The Savior lives inside me there
In Your love I find release
A haven from my unbelief
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee
In these trials of life I find
Another voice inside my mind
He comforts me and bids me live
Inside the love the Father gives
In Your love I find release
A haven from my unbelief
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee
I am weary, and so I lay me head on Your hands.
Let me be.. let me be.. the one you want me to be.
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
10:45 pm While studying for my anesthesia and surgery, received a sms from my aunt.
" pls mind your words n bear the consequence b4 u wrote the blog ."
Really appreciate her reminder .
The purpose of me starting of a blog was to use it as a platform to express myself, a true myself .
All the words in the blog are just another me , but a real me , that is not usually shown to other people in my real life..
I call it an escape of the other self.
I believe that everyone needs a channel , to express him-/herself.
There are moments when I cannot tell those dirty jokes with my colleagues / family... there are moments where I can't tell my problems to my friends and family as I used to keep things to myself, especially my sadness , my worries, and my emotion , as I personally feel that even friends can be bored of my own self-pitiness ; everyone have their own problems, why do I want to burden them ? Sometimes I want to share these pieces of me with others; some times I wanted to be heard .
However, people that read blogs are different. They might be someone that you know, they might be strangers to you.. but when they read my blog, I know that these are the people who feel free and care , at least for that few minutes . I find comfort when people read my blogs or leaving comments on my blog . Thanks :D Yeah, it's you..
Of course I might not be using the proper words. Sometimes, I vent my anger on the blog, and somebody is hurt . True self.. human being , selfish... greedy... angry...sad...jerk... stupid.. smart .. clever... self-centered ... inconsiderate ... That's nature of human, regardless of the beauty / ugliness. Hence, take it seriously and easy.. It gives you a picture pieces of puzzle that forms a man; we should enjoy the art of it! (as if visiting an art gallery/ exhibition)
Anyway, this is how the blogs work , isn't it ? If you find this blog is offending you, then just leave and don't read it . Most of the bloggers, inclusive of me never point to a particular person with a real identity on the blog ; we usually talked in a very general term. Maybe we are not even talking about you at all, but if you perasan.. then I have nothing to say so. But if we are talking about you, and you realise it, maybe it's time to ponder upon the reason behind these.
No doubt that I must admit that there are people that like to blackmail the innocent one. Sometimes what the blogger says on their blogs is not true . If so, you can either clarify it in a decent way(though firing back is more " qi kek" ), or wait till the bad guys got their own punishment till the end of the day. What goes around comes around .
Or let time do its job... I always believe that the longer the time ,the better you'll know someone. As the chinese saying goes , " You' know how good(strong / powerful ??) a horse is after a long journey "
Personally feel that shouldn't stab back the bloggers... " yam yam sap sap " .... very "siu ka", it reflects on you.
Don't be sad / angry if other have prejudice on you, as those who knows you, will knows you; those who don't, merely a passenger that we meet in our life, a passenger that gives us a chance to mold and strengthen ourselves .
" pls mind your words n bear the consequence b4 u wrote the blog ."
Really appreciate her reminder .
The purpose of me starting of a blog was to use it as a platform to express myself, a true myself .
All the words in the blog are just another me , but a real me , that is not usually shown to other people in my real life..
I call it an escape of the other self.
I believe that everyone needs a channel , to express him-/herself.
There are moments when I cannot tell those dirty jokes with my colleagues / family... there are moments where I can't tell my problems to my friends and family as I used to keep things to myself, especially my sadness , my worries, and my emotion , as I personally feel that even friends can be bored of my own self-pitiness ; everyone have their own problems, why do I want to burden them ? Sometimes I want to share these pieces of me with others; some times I wanted to be heard .
However, people that read blogs are different. They might be someone that you know, they might be strangers to you.. but when they read my blog, I know that these are the people who feel free and care , at least for that few minutes . I find comfort when people read my blogs or leaving comments on my blog . Thanks :D Yeah, it's you..
Of course I might not be using the proper words. Sometimes, I vent my anger on the blog, and somebody is hurt . True self.. human being , selfish... greedy... angry...sad...jerk... stupid.. smart .. clever... self-centered ... inconsiderate ... That's nature of human, regardless of the beauty / ugliness. Hence, take it seriously and easy.. It gives you a picture pieces of puzzle that forms a man; we should enjoy the art of it! (as if visiting an art gallery/ exhibition)
Anyway, this is how the blogs work , isn't it ? If you find this blog is offending you, then just leave and don't read it . Most of the bloggers, inclusive of me never point to a particular person with a real identity on the blog ; we usually talked in a very general term. Maybe we are not even talking about you at all, but if you perasan.. then I have nothing to say so. But if we are talking about you, and you realise it, maybe it's time to ponder upon the reason behind these.
No doubt that I must admit that there are people that like to blackmail the innocent one. Sometimes what the blogger says on their blogs is not true . If so, you can either clarify it in a decent way(though firing back is more " qi kek" ), or wait till the bad guys got their own punishment till the end of the day. What goes around comes around .
Or let time do its job... I always believe that the longer the time ,the better you'll know someone. As the chinese saying goes , " You' know how good(strong / powerful ??) a horse is after a long journey "
Personally feel that shouldn't stab back the bloggers... " yam yam sap sap " .... very "siu ka", it reflects on you.
Don't be sad / angry if other have prejudice on you, as those who knows you, will knows you; those who don't, merely a passenger that we meet in our life, a passenger that gives us a chance to mold and strengthen ourselves .
Monday, January 14, 2008
I want to remember this moment
8:30 Feeling uneasy ...
8:45 weird feeling (my nephew is born!)
10:30 Bear called . Let me know bout Ethan-- my lovely little nephew ..
10:45 Jumping around and ask my room mate to congrate me
Hahahahhahahahahahahaahhahaha...
Time to celebrate for a new life is born!
Amen!
我要记住这一刻，因为他的来临。小生命， 喜悦。
阿姨和你一起努力！
爱你哟！
8:45 weird feeling (my nephew is born!)
10:30 Bear called . Let me know bout Ethan-- my lovely little nephew ..
10:45 Jumping around and ask my room mate to congrate me
Hahahahhahahahahahahaahhahaha...
Time to celebrate for a new life is born!
Amen!
我要记住这一刻，因为他的来临。小生命， 喜悦。
阿姨和你一起努力！
爱你哟！
Saturday, January 05, 2008
What should I do?
What should I do when I got to know that my Gran is dying ?
Chronic Renal Failure. Required blood transfusion now..basically these suggest the condition is quite bad .
I am not cursing my Gran ... cause CRF is a one way ticket.. It's just a matter of time , that determine how fast the progression of the disease is taking up her life.
I can hardly think properly now. What should I do ?
As a granddaughter who is away from home now, as a Christian whose Gran is a non-Christian does not like Christian at all ?
Chronic Renal Failure. Required blood transfusion now..basically these suggest the condition is quite bad .
I am not cursing my Gran ... cause CRF is a one way ticket.. It's just a matter of time , that determine how fast the progression of the disease is taking up her life.
I can hardly think properly now. What should I do ?
As a granddaughter who is away from home now, as a Christian whose Gran is a non-Christian does not like Christian at all ?
Friday, January 04, 2008
I don't understand what are you waiting for?
Should you have an old granny at home who is diagnosed of having chronic renal failure, Doc advised that she should be sent to the hospital immediately for blood transfusion. Shouldn't you do it immediately ?
What are you waiting for?
Yes, Granny maybe stubborn, and refuse to go to the hospital. But now what's more important ? Her stubborness or her life ? Shouldn't we act immediately to relieve her pain and suffer ? The longer you wait, the more pain and suffers, and the worse she 'll get into.
No doubt that money is a thing. But hey, general hospital is there!
I don't get it when you said you wanna wait for other siblings reply. It's about life , what are you hesitating?
You said you didn't want to be blamed by others.. No matter what you do, people will still point their fingers to you. So what's the point?
I am disappointed. I am sad. I am angry.
Cause when it comes to life , you can't wait.
I can't bear your ostrich-like attitude.
What are you waiting for?
Yes, Granny maybe stubborn, and refuse to go to the hospital. But now what's more important ? Her stubborness or her life ? Shouldn't we act immediately to relieve her pain and suffer ? The longer you wait, the more pain and suffers, and the worse she 'll get into.
No doubt that money is a thing. But hey, general hospital is there!
I don't get it when you said you wanna wait for other siblings reply. It's about life , what are you hesitating?
You said you didn't want to be blamed by others.. No matter what you do, people will still point their fingers to you. So what's the point?
I am disappointed. I am sad. I am angry.
Cause when it comes to life , you can't wait.
I can't bear your ostrich-like attitude.
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