Started to understand your feelings after meeting up a few friends who are working in medical lines.
Stress and lots of work. Exhausted.

At the end of the day, you just feel like staying home and get some rest.
Let the brain and body take a good rest.

Just need a rest .

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Back to hometown.

Thought that running away, the further it is , maybe it is easier to forget about you. And let you go.

Suprisingly, when I am back to Penang, I found peace in my mind.

This is the place where I can rest my heart and my soul.
Maybe I should come back.

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realised that I really need to take at least 1 month to rest my soul, my mind and my body.
5 years. 8 months. 2 years.

never have time to rest and really think about what I really want.
But the picture is getting closer and closer.
Proverbs 31: 10

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I will do all the things I wanted to do for you. Those might not be the things that you want. But I still hope that it will bring you lots of joy and happiness. I do not expect anything from you right now. Not at all. I do it, not because I want to get something in return from you, not to get your attention, not to prove to you anything. I just wanna be myself . Be brave enough to be myself. I do what I wanna do. Then, I will focus on my career and my walk with our Heavenly Father.

Though there is no signs, nothing. Faith keeps me alive.

God will lead me and guide me. Our God turns grieve to joy. There shall be joy and peace.
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Do I still love you ? I guess yes. But this time the feelings ... different from what I felt last time. Maybe I am tired. Maybe I just wanna let go. But I am not sure. So I ask God.

All I wanna do is to be an obedient child of our Father.

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Those questions that were lingering in my head, knowing the answers would be good. But putting more effort in pushing you through it, not anymore. I am exhausted by myself.

What's most important ? God knows my heart.

He always teaches me , and shows me , letting me to know who I really am.

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Getting to understand more and more of you. Those questions that you asked me .
The answer to the sweetest question you 've ever asked ? Yes.

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