Course night 2009 -- The mark of the ending of my 5 year degree

Went to prom .

Many things flashed through my mind.

The slides presentation did not really make me move.

Maybe there 's not much of my memories here.

I am not a somebody here.

5 years ....

Is a long way... not too far away....

Friendship comes and goes.
It's up to us to maintain the relationship.
Nothing last forever, except the love of God.
Most importantly,
I hope that I will not lose myself again
In whichever path that God lead me to
To discover what really lies in me

It's not how much I earn
It's not how well I am
It's not how smart I am
It's not how wealthy I am
It's not how pretty I am
It's not about how well-liked I am

It's about the simple things in life
It's about the beauty of this world
of GOD's every creature

It's about how much I do care
I appreciate
all this simplicity .

The man that I love

A glass of wine, whispering bossa nova,
dancing slowly through the melody
With the man that I love

The man that I love
Is neither a perfect man
The man that I love
Nor a romanticist

Oh when that will happen ?
Oh when you will be ?


The man that I love
Makes me cry
The man that I love
Makes me smile

I love him , He loves me too.

The man that I love
Tell his mother
He wanna leave the town
To visit his love one

The man that I love
Though did not leave the town
Sent sms and telling his love one
That he misses her very much

The man that I love
is neither a handsome chap
nor a wealthy man
The man that I love
is a nobody
but a somebody in my heart

The man that I love
is just a man that I love
and he loves me too.

Tag : Joshua @ Hooi Meng

Bleeding heart

Sunday Afternoon

Sunday Afternoon - Rachael Yamagata

It's a choice
to stay
It's a dream
& I wanna wake

You have blood on your hands
and I'm feeling faint
And honey
You can't decide

I'm a drug
Ya don't wanna give up
Smoke your cigarettes
Make your love

You poured blood in my heart
and I can't get enough
I'm drowning, drowning
and you can't decide

It's not about geography, or happenstance
you need to fly, & take a chance
You don't need to soar to emptiness
Float on high, & forever dance alone

Your scared, scared, scared
cuz I feel like home

Hear your voice
Knew right away
If you were here
your eyes would say

There is blood on my feet
as I'm walking away
Rivers are red
Its starting to rain

I'm not gonna live for you
or die for you
Won't do anything anymore for you
Cuz you leave me here on the other side
You leave me here on the other side


Not gonna shed one more tear for you
shed one more tear for you
I'm not gonna shed one more tear for you

At least not til Sunday Afternoon
Sunday Afternoon

Leave or Stay
Leave or Stay

What if...

What if ...
What if we have never met ?
What if the flower never blossom?
What if the race has never started ?
What if we never fought before ?
What if you apologize?
What if I din turn off the phone?
What if we still love each other ?
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There is no more what if ...
We know it very well.



What if.... when there is no more what if .

The End of the Chapter...

Cheer Chan
Finally
You stop calling
Stop asking
Stop concerning
Stop quarreling
Stop fighting
Stop texting
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From today onwards,
there is no need, and no haste
to wait for
your call
your sms
to reply
every single word that you say
to replay
every single moment
about you

Thank you for giving me the space
Thank you for letting go
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So now I can stop
Thinking about you
Crying for you
Aching for you
Changing myself
into someone that I hardly know
for you
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New life
New Air
A Brand new me.
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We can't tell what's the future holding for us
The End . The Beginning ?
Love me not ?
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Maybe it 's not important anymore
At least
I can rest my pain
for the timebeing.
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Thank you for loving me so much
And hurting me so much
Both of us are merely immature beings
Living in their very own little world
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What you wants is not what i want...
What I want is not what you want...

Song for J

Even So - Rachael Yamagata

"Even So"

You're gonna hate me when I tell you everything
You're gonna question whether you really know me at all
You will revisit every smile, and where it fit into the day
I know this is how it will play
And I try, oh I try to think of all the things
That I could do to let you know that I love

Even so

I was not looking to do you wrong
Was not looking for a change of scenery
Don't remember where, or when, or how I did
But I'm hoping you'll forgive me
And I try, oh I try to think of all the things
That I could do to let you know that I love you

Do you remember how we'd run in the summertime
Do you remember how we'd run in the summertime

Oh I try, I try so very hard
And I cry, I cry so very much
For I love you like you'll never let yourself feel again
I love you like a brother and a friend
I love you with my whole heart until it bends
I love you like a lover until the very end

But I'll always think of all the things you did
To let me know that you love me
But you're leaving

Even so

Song for J

Reason Why - Rachael Yamagata

I think about how it might have been
We'd spend out days travelin'
It's not that I don't understand you
It's not that I don't want to be with you
But you only wanted me
The way you wanted me

So, I will head out alone, hope for the best
And we hang our heads down
As we skip the goodbyes
And you can tell the world what you want them to hear
I've got nothing left to lose, my dear
So, I'm up for the little white lies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there

I'll buy a magazine searching for your face
From coast to coast, or where ever I find my place
I'll track you on the radio, and
I'll sign your list in a different name
But as close as I get to you
It's not the same

So, I will head out alone, hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
As say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I know the reason why
I'm gone, you're still there
I'm gone, you're still there
I'm gone, and you're still there

So, steal the show, and do your best
To cover the tracks that I have left
I wish you well and hope you find
Whatever you're looking for
The way I might've changed my mind,
But you only showed me the door

So, I will head out alone, hope for the best
We can pat ourselves on the back
And say that we tried
And if one of us makes it big
We can spill our regrets
And talk about how the love never dies
But you and I, you and I, you and I know the reason why.

a little bit down this morning
missed my dateline
for my assignment

but your concern
your sis was sitting beside you

Don't you know that a little gesture
can make a big difference
It's heaven
but now it's hell

Just a gal
need a lot of love
calling out for love
wanting love
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Happy that I finally got some time
for myself

It has been a long time
since
I can have a cup of hot tea
sitting by myself
In an empty hall of mine

No intruders
No interupters

But there is freedom
and satisfaction

Just me and myself
my pc
and a playlist
iron and wine

perhaps what's lacking
just a glass of wine

A perfect afternoon
A perfect rainy day

though there was
a little crack in this morning

It's a peaceful afternoon
though I have canceled my plan
to go for shopping

It's a peaceful afternoon
though he didn't call nor sms
(or lucky he didn't call )

It's a peaceful afternoon
and I am pleased

For my heart is filled
For God knows what I need the most

It's nothing else,
But this peaceful moment.

Amen.

Naked As We Came (Album) - Iron And Wine

Everyone is moving ...
Are you
Part of the game
Did you win
or lose

Did it hinder you
from moving forward
oder holding you back
from advancing

Is this a joke
or a blessing
Pain and sweetness
intertwine
Twist follows twist
Thirst for more
Losing more of self


Where are you heading to
where are you going to
what's going through

not within ya control
not within ya expectation

do you wanna let it go
or hold on it
tighter
the merrier
the crazier
the more hysterical

The closer
the further
the more you know
the less you know

strangers
to lovers
lovers
to stranger
??

tears to laughter
laughter to tears
??

Cuddling together
both on heaven
pushing away
to the deepest vale

hello or bye
bye or hello

silence
silent you fool !!
silence speaking all these while.

dirty linen !!
no dirty linen , but a rift between us



part of life
part of lie

Drowning in this swirl.

Flightless bird, American Mouth

I really love Iron and Wine. His song is so poetic.Listening to his song is like browsing through a movie . I don't have a very strong background of English literature . Below is the interpretation of Flightless bird, american mouth (my favourite songs of his )by darleneinacio that I came across.

I was a quick wet boy diving too deep for coins:
He was a guy that was hard to get and only cared for money,

All of your streetlight eyes, Wide on my plastic toys:
Everyone only saw him for what he had though.

Then when the cops closed the fair:
Then he realized he wanted love

I cut my long baby hair:
he decided to grow up.

Stole me a dog-eared map:
He realized what he wanted

And called for you everywhere:
and started searching for her

Have I found you:
has he found it?

flightless bird:
this fragile helpless thing could it be her?

Jealous, weeping:
he is jealous and sad.

Or is lost you:
Or is he to late?

American mouth:
are is she spoken for?

Big pill, looming:
the thought is hard to swallow

Now I'm a fat house cat:
Now he is happy he can have all he wants

Nursing my sore blunt tongue:
can finally get some rest he don't have to call for her anymore.

Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence ****s:
he watching the other girls try to tell her lies so the can get in.

****ing on magazines:
He knows it's lies

those fishing lures thrown in the cold and clean:
so no matter how much the girls try the are fishing without bate

Blood of Christ mountain stream:
Because what he has is very pure.

Have I found you:
So is she the one?

Flightless bird:
this unlikely creature

grounded:
he is not going anywhere

bleeding:
He would rather get hurt

or lost you:
Well he loss her?

american mouth:
will she find another and be spoken for

Big pill stuck going down:
that would be to hard to swallow

SMS fraud and sleeping police

13 Oct 2008 13:39
As I was focusing on reading in the library, my cellphone sms alert interrupted . A mystery number without ID was shown .



" Congratulations
No'simcard anda
Tlah m-menangi
HADIAH UTAMA
Wang Tunai!!
Rm15,ooo.oo,dr
Syarikat SHELL
Call/sila dail;
017-8311242
Terima kasih"


Oh mine, God is so graceful to me that He knows that I am too late to apply for JPA scholarships! Oh yeah..

Wait ... ...

Isn't it too good to have such a big frog jumping everywhere on the street ? (Chinese sayings, same meaning as in "no lunch is FOC under the sun.")

It is obvious that this sms is 99.99999999999999999999999999% a spam, or a fraud.
But there is 0.00000000000000000000000001% that I might get the money , right ?
Oops, forgot to tell ya , that's in my dream.

I've read many forwarding emails regarding conman using this tactic to bloodily suck all your bloody money from your bloody blood sucking bank account . Usually the hero in the above incidence is tanned-curly speaking English and Malay in the slang of land of giraffe.

I am so excited .

THOU SHALT LODGE A POLICE REPORT .

A firm voice was speaking through my tiny head.

But what if it is real ? Making a fake report is an offence.And I still wanna keep my IC color . Blue is cool.

Home.
(Pressing 017-8311242)

And I am still very excited.

I mean, hey, what should I expect if I called ?
Sexy voice asking for my room number ?

Mr Conman: " Selamat petang. Ini Syarikat ....(he was mumbling )

Me : " Ya. Good afternoon. May I know who is on the line ? "

Mr Conman : " Apa? Cakap Melayu boleh ? "

Me :" (shit, my BM tak boleh pakai one ) Emm..Siapa yang tengah cakap ini ? Tadi Saya dapat satu sms dari nombor ini -0178903136. "

Mr Conman : " Oh ya . Anda telah memenangi RM 15000 dari Syarikat Shell ..(mumbling again)... Maxis Celcom simcard...(mumbling again) Ini Cik apa ? "

Me : " (Duh.. tell me ya name la, idiot) X. Siapa yang tengah cakap ni?

Mr Conman : " Lanjit .. "

Me : " Huh ? "

Mr Conman : "Ranjit . Ini cik apa ni? "

Me : " (Duh...) XXX..... (waiting for him to continue the conversation)

Mr Conman : "(Very excited)Encik, boleh ... (mumbling again)telefon nombor ? "

Me : " huh? "

Mr Conman : " Telefon nombor "

Me : " 012-4.......(mumbling my number so that he can't get it."

Mr Conman : " (Pretended that he got it) Bank account mana ...(mumbling again).."

Me : " Aeon. "

Mr Conman : " Bank account (mumbling again) wang masuk .... (mumbling)" <>

Me: " Sorry, ni syarikat mana ? "

Mr Conman : " Ini Syarikat SHELL minyak.... (mumbling again)"

Me :" Mr Ranjit ,may I know which department you are working in ? "

Mr Conman : " Ini Syarikat SHELL minyak , Jalan Damansara, KL ...(Mumbling again) " <>

Me : " Sorry Mr Ranjit . I got an incoming call right now . We continue it later , kay ?"

Mr Conman : " huh? Melayu , Melayu ."

Me : " Incoming call , incoming call. Bye. "


Without any hesitation, I headed off to the nearest Police Station to lodge a report... ...


Continuation...

The police asked me to write down whatever my concerned was. That's it. And they even commented that I should have just leave it alone , ignore the phone .

Hello, I think I was just doing what a responsible "rakyat" will do. This need to be reported , and (so) the police carries out their duty to track and keep these unscrupulous people in jail. It's crime. Prevention of crime is important .

Wake up! Wake up! You sleeping people.

Pissed. Angry. Sad. Disappointed.

CHerry... YUI..in Quran

Life.. YUI

Goodbye days

Yui - Goodbye Days / lyrics

Dakara ima ai ni yuku
So kimetanda
Poketto no kono kyoku wo
kimi ni kikasetai

Sotto boryu-mu wo agete
Tashikamete mitayo

Oh Good-bye Days
Ima, kawaru ki ga suru
Kinou made ni
So Long
Kakko yokunai
Yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara
La la la la la with you

Katahou no earphone wo
Kimi ni watasu
Yukkuri to nagare komu
Kono shunkan

Umaku aisete imasu ka?
Tama ni mayou kedo

Oh Good-bye Days
Ima, kawari hajimeta
Mune no oku
All Right
Kakko yokunai
Yasashisa ga soba ni aru kara
La la la la la with you

Dekireba kanashii
Omoi nante shitaku nai
Demo yattekuru deshou, oh
Sono toki egao de
"Yeah, Hello My Friend" nante sa
Ieta nara ii noni

Onaji uta wo
Kuchizusamu toki
Soba ni ite I Wish
Kakko yokunai
Yasashisa ni aeta yokatta yo
La la la la good-bye days

Goodbye to you

And of all the things I believed in,
I just wanna carry in you; your eyes,
You spawn behind my light is but I do night cry,
Come each day past me by,

I’ll been shorting Eden my soul,
Using a heary and I’m stroting to get old,
You life I’m surfing, I’m a over again,
Last be in past me by,
And I say— right

Goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything, what I do,
You would like to learn I cry
Hoping that I try to hold on to

Oh oh woah oh

And the horns want everything
And nothing gets the same sign

I want what’s yours and I’ll what was mine
I want to, and never give in disguise

Goodbye to you,
Goodbye to everything, what I do,
You would like to learn I cry
Hoping that I try to hold on to

Hoping that I try to hold on to

Hold on to

Oh oh woah oh

And let the stroke pass by the life thick
You’re none shooting star

laugh away.... YUI

Yui summer song + laugh away

YUI summer song ....

Things that you will never thought of .. but now you are part of it...

How many of us have this sort of experience or feelings ?

Just a few updates for u... ...

Yes , now I memang " lai ye " liao... who will think that I will be uh hmm.. in love with that not- so - good - looking guy ?

I guess this is how amazing that God put two unrelated person together .. not really unrelated la.. it is just that I never notice that

I remember that's a chain letter saying that don't forget to smile , coz you never know who will be falling in love with your smile.. so keep on smiling.. Think about it , all single out there!