I had a nightmare last night.

But I can't call you.

I can no longer call you

In the middle of the night

Just to tell you that I got a night mare

and I am afraid

Will you ever pick up the phone

Start praying for me

Singing lullaby to me

Until I fall asleep again?

In the middle of the night,

I can't call you

Anymore.

“一个人即使没有钱，也可以给人七样东西：

一、颜施，即微笑处事。

二、言施，多说鼓励赞美和安慰的话。

三、心施，敞开心扉对人诚恳。

四、眼施，给人善意的眼光。

五、身施，用行动帮助别人。

六、座施，即谦让座位。

七、房施，有容人之心。

有这七种布施，任何人都将不会困苦，好运一定相随。”
~~陈庐一

夏克約's says...

確定方向，然後在不穩定與不安中成長

"when the silence envelops you, then your soul can sing"
"愛情需要緣份和感動 而幸福則需要勇氣和冒險"
"深深的話，要淺淺的說"(張懸 親愛的)..."但要用力的聽與努力的做"(J)

from Eden
依賴，並非耍賴。自在，也不是隨便。越是親近的人，越容易受傷。
選擇的結果並不可怕，可怕的是選擇之前的恐懼，讓人卻步不前。
想在一個讓自己安穩的懷裡停下來

http://zinlee.blogspot.com/

感同身受. Merci!

我不會飛

原谅

O Lord, pls guard my heart and my mouth from evil.

I shall not dwell in the past.

Shall not speak and see from the angle of my narrow window.

Shall think if whatever I say is going to give a negative impact to others before I speak.

原谅 =还原过去美好的一切,谅解过去发生的一切.

以后只提你的好, 不提其他的.

只感谢, 不埋怨.

What it meant by growing old gracefully together

Random ..

Must protect
this little heart of mine.
Little heart
needs protection.

Random thoughts

Just part and parcel of faded connections

If only I can pack these memories into a parcel

and send them back to you

or send it away from myself

Life would have been easier.

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Start working ...
If I take this responsibility as a job,
maybe I will do it better.

So now , my job = study well.

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I think it is too much.
Time to stop mourning.
Time to stop complaining
to others
What is left ?
It's just me .

Just me and myself .
But stretching out is easier .
It's easier to have someone else to pull me up when I am falling down.
I am not strong enough. Not yet.
Thought that I am ok.
No I am not .
Maybe it is due to
stress adaptation.
Hey ya.... anyone willing to pull me out of this ?

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Maybe I should start another post ... Maybe it should be written on the layout.
A reminder ...
things that make me feel happy.

I wanna be happy.
I shall be happy.
I will be happy.

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I am angry... angry , and upset.

Don't you know that I hate it when you do this on my laptop?

Don't you know that we all hate it when you do it ?

Wake up.

Random

My dad's pet CoolCool just passed away. Hit by car.

He cried.

My sis told me.

I got a feeling that I need to call back home but my sis asked me not now.

the first time that I saw my dad crying -- on my granny's funeral.

Crying is good for him.

Found out that there is a certain time I will get particularly sentimental and I will miss J terribly.

I guess this is not something big , but it means something to me and now I find no one that I can talk about it .

I can randomly call any friend of mine just to talk about it. But who would like to listen about it ? I mean it is not something very important to them.

I wonder if J ever had a moment like this before. I never saw J crying though.

I am alone in my rented house.

Roomie has gone back to her hometown.

We're having another empty room, still waiting for the next tenant.

Another housemate decided not to go to concert tonight which earlier she asked me to accompany her.

I have got tonnes of revision to be done but I am just not in the mood.

I guess blogging is another alternative when you find that there is no one to talk to.

I guess that I am being emo, today.

Come to Jesus - Chris Rice

A song that can calm my mind and ease my pain.

I think....

I shall not stay at home and study ...

Since at home x focus

Especially from 12-3 pm...

Maybe it's because of the weather ...

Maybe I should go to Fac and study...

Maybe I should go to Mc D ...

Maybe I should go to some other place...

Lord, I need to focus.. Help me!!!!

只許州官放火 --- 不許百姓点灯 The story

Zhi3 xu3 zhou1 guan1 fan4 hua3, bu4xu3bai3xing4dian3deng1.

From nciku note.

During the Song dynasty there was a magistrate named Tian Deng who resented people calling or writing his name. He even ordered them to avoid using any adaptation of the word "deng" (this word has the same pronunciation with another "deng", meaning lamp). Whenever someone did so, he became extremely angry; he ended up lashing many minor officials. Therefore, all the people in the state decided to call a lamp (deng), fire. On the Lantern Festival, the lamps were on for three days as celebration, and this was done in Tian's state as well. The local government would put out an official notice to inform every family to make preparations for the festival. To avoid using the word lamp, his followers wrote this sentence on these notices, "According to custom the fire would be set for three days in our state." When others read the notices, they did not know whether to laugh or to cry and be afraid.

只許州官放火 --- 不許百姓点灯

只許州官放火 --- 不許百姓点灯

http://www.sinchew.com.my/node/145825?tid=1

I remember that when I was in my first year, Tamadun Islam is a compulsory course. If this is the case, then how can we study Tamadun Islam without using those words since we are forbidden to "use them "?

Once again, this is only restricted to certain state. So there is no excuse for my juniors not to study Tamadun Islam ..

Time for reflection, Time to ponder, a time to pray for our nation and leader.
We need a rightous , and wise leader.

10 more weeks

10 weeks to go...

Started my rotation

Life is getting really busy

Time is not enough.

But play and rest time shouldn't be ignored.

New Year Resolution :
Be nottier, happier, more relaxed, and more efficient in time management.
Be more grateful , more careful , more considerate, less emotional.
Nottier x = bad
Just a little bit more cheeky , and loosen myself and others .

Amen.

Random

20.12.2009

First day since the last month, went for a brisk walk.

21.12.2009

Went for a jog. Met my coursemates. Dreamt about J asking if I am going out with other guy, I gave him a smirk in the dream. He was very "kancheong " in the dream.

Got a call from H3, a new friend met in a party of my friend. Seems like my friend is really pushing and selling hard in front of H3.

Check 11 signs of depression. My score was 10/11. Hmm, was really having depression the past three months. Am I still having depression ? hmm I think now I am better .

Waiting patiently from the answer of God . Hope that I won't be down on x'mas and Boxing day.
Love is waiting , till it's right.

Counting blessings

Thankful to Lord
Despite of the tension in my house
My housemate still talks to me
My roomate still talks to me

Grateful to Lord
Despite of the separation
I still have friends asking me out for movies and shopping
I still have friends willing to call me when my credit is low

Praise to the Lord
Despite of the tension in my pocket
I still have my mom, and sisters provide me with
Things that I need
I still have my friends that's willing to give and share

All Glory to Lord
Despite of the gravity that is pulling me downward
I have friends willing to lend their hands
To lift me up
Despite of the tears that I shed
I still can cry
I still have feelings

All glory to God,
I am still living on this earth.

Amen.

Kisses in the Wind

This song has always been one of my favourite.
Dedicating this song for someone who was my world before.

You told me one misty day
(That) you’ll never go away
The look in your eyes
I’m so afraid
Deep in a spell
Feels like a spinning carousel
Are they just kisses in the wind

One day in the morning rain
You came back (to) ease my pain
Will our hearts ever be the same?
Make believing there were no broken promises
But they are just kisses in the wind

And the sun won’t ever shine
I guess it don’t mind
Now that you’re gone
But I will always love you
Who’ll stop the rain
Is it me to blame
Broken records and picture frames

The sun is setting to the west
(I’m) feeling the emptiness
Or are you saving it all the best
Pour my heart
Then say we should be (far) apart
And they’re just kisses in the wind

The evening breeze is here
Say good-bye
(I) don’t wanna cry
One last kiss my love will never die
I may be a fool
My neverending love for you
To you
It’s just kisses in the wind

Be a happy self

This fall is a great alarm for me ...

It's time to go wild and crazy
That I have never had the gut to do
Let's do something out of the norm
Something romantic
Something that I never get from you
Something that will make me feel happy
Something that needs no expectation from others
Something that you will never know
Something beautiful
Something silly
Something confusing
Something puzzling
Something out of the blue
Something
That's me
That's not me
that doesn't belong to me
that's belong to me

Then when I walk back down this memory lane
At least there is something more exciting and colourful
Washes away
Dilute
The bitterness

A little secret of mine
A little happy secret recipe of mine

對的人