Happy birthday mommy

Today is my mom's birthday.

Mommy, missing you much.

I also wanna thank God, for His mercy , and His faithfulness.

Just got to know that my mom flew to S'pore to visit my little nephew and my dearest sis, and Dan BIL.

I was so upset the past few weeks, I thought that mom wouldn't have the chance to do it so , as there was some emergency at home.

Then, things turn out so right, but God just like to keep it as a surprise to me!

My aunt took the initiative to invite my mom to fly to Singapore with her, and she assured her that Gran would be fine as other uncles and aunties would take good care of her.

Never cease to believe in the "goodness " in people. It's a lesson that my God teaches me .

A Living Prayer

By Alison Krauss



In this world I walk alone
With no place to call my home
But there's one who holds my hand
The rugged road through barren lands
The way is dark, the road is steep
But He's become my eyes to see
The strength to climb, my griefs to bear
The Savior lives inside me there

In Your love I find release
A haven from my unbelief
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee

In these trials of life I find
Another voice inside my mind
He comforts me and bids me live
Inside the love the Father gives

In Your love I find release
A haven from my unbelief
Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee

Take my life and let me be
A living prayer, my God to Thee

I am weary, and so I lay me head on Your hands.
Let me be.. let me be.. the one you want me to be.

10:45 pm While studying for my anesthesia and surgery, received a sms from my aunt.

" pls mind your words n bear the consequence b4 u wrote the blog ."

Really appreciate her reminder .

The purpose of me starting of a blog was to use it as a platform to express myself, a true myself .

All the words in the blog are just another me , but a real me , that is not usually shown to other people in my real life..

I call it an escape of the other self.
I believe that everyone needs a channel , to express him-/herself.
There are moments when I cannot tell those dirty jokes with my colleagues / family... there are moments where I can't tell my problems to my friends and family as I used to keep things to myself, especially my sadness , my worries, and my emotion , as I personally feel that even friends can be bored of my own self-pitiness ; everyone have their own problems, why do I want to burden them ? Sometimes I want to share these pieces of me with others; some times I wanted to be heard .

However, people that read blogs are different. They might be someone that you know, they might be strangers to you.. but when they read my blog, I know that these are the people who feel free and care , at least for that few minutes . I find comfort when people read my blogs or leaving comments on my blog . Thanks :D Yeah, it's you..

Of course I might not be using the proper words. Sometimes, I vent my anger on the blog, and somebody is hurt . True self.. human being , selfish... greedy... angry...sad...jerk... stupid.. smart .. clever... self-centered ... inconsiderate ... That's nature of human, regardless of the beauty / ugliness. Hence, take it seriously and easy.. It gives you a picture pieces of puzzle that forms a man; we should enjoy the art of it! (as if visiting an art gallery/ exhibition)

Anyway, this is how the blogs work , isn't it ? If you find this blog is offending you, then just leave and don't read it . Most of the bloggers, inclusive of me never point to a particular person with a real identity on the blog ; we usually talked in a very general term. Maybe we are not even talking about you at all, but if you perasan.. then I have nothing to say so. But if we are talking about you, and you realise it, maybe it's time to ponder upon the reason behind these.

No doubt that I must admit that there are people that like to blackmail the innocent one. Sometimes what the blogger says on their blogs is not true . If so, you can either clarify it in a decent way(though firing back is more " qi kek" ), or wait till the bad guys got their own punishment till the end of the day. What goes around comes around .

Or let time do its job... I always believe that the longer the time ,the better you'll know someone. As the chinese saying goes , " You' know how good(strong / powerful ??) a horse is after a long journey "

Personally feel that shouldn't stab back the bloggers... " yam yam sap sap " .... very "siu ka", it reflects on you.

Don't be sad / angry if other have prejudice on you, as those who knows you, will knows you; those who don't, merely a passenger that we meet in our life, a passenger that gives us a chance to mold and strengthen ourselves .

I want to remember this moment

8:30 Feeling uneasy ...
8:45 weird feeling (my nephew is born!)
10:30 Bear called . Let me know bout Ethan-- my lovely little nephew ..
10:45 Jumping around and ask my room mate to congrate me


Hahahahhahahahahahahaahhahaha...

Time to celebrate for a new life is born!

Amen!

我要记住这一刻，因为他的来临。小生命， 喜悦。
阿姨和你一起努力！
爱你哟！

What should I do?

What should I do when I got to know that my Gran is dying ?

Chronic Renal Failure. Required blood transfusion now..basically these suggest the condition is quite bad .

I am not cursing my Gran ... cause CRF is a one way ticket.. It's just a matter of time , that determine how fast the progression of the disease is taking up her life.

I can hardly think properly now. What should I do ?

As a granddaughter who is away from home now, as a Christian whose Gran is a non-Christian does not like Christian at all ?

I don't understand what are you waiting for?

Should you have an old granny at home who is diagnosed of having chronic renal failure, Doc advised that she should be sent to the hospital immediately for blood transfusion. Shouldn't you do it immediately ?

What are you waiting for?
Yes, Granny maybe stubborn, and refuse to go to the hospital. But now what's more important ? Her stubborness or her life ? Shouldn't we act immediately to relieve her pain and suffer ? The longer you wait, the more pain and suffers, and the worse she 'll get into.

No doubt that money is a thing. But hey, general hospital is there!

I don't get it when you said you wanna wait for other siblings reply. It's about life , what are you hesitating?

You said you didn't want to be blamed by others.. No matter what you do, people will still point their fingers to you. So what's the point?

I am disappointed. I am sad. I am angry.

Cause when it comes to life , you can't wait.

I can't bear your ostrich-like attitude.

Stop the bullet , kill the gun

was really impressed by the pressure exerted and released by the bullet.

Life is fragile.

Think about it.

Because I am your mom song

Niamah... geng!

King of vulgar cantonese

Name vs Personality/Fate ?

Ever wonder what our names are famous for?

Well, out or boredom and curiosity, I googled my sis and my name to see if the name really have something to do with our fate.

For my eldest sis, I found that her name mostly related to numbers, share and education. Quite similar to what she is doing now, as she is working in a bank.

My elder's name is the most unique one, that's only one profile for her e-name, which is herself. However, for her c-name, are mostly related to fashion stuffs , such as model, shoes etc.
Another coincidence, I guess , as she is the most fashionable among us.

As for mine, it's related to an old, yet provoking academician on philosophy and politics. Another lady of my name is a famous law dictionary editor . Yet, I also found my name on horse-racing activities...

Interesting, as I found that there are similarities among the people with the same name.

Of course , it could be just co-incidence(s).

If how you name your children really have an effects on their personality , what would you do?

I suggest, google the name(s) and see if there is any donkeys using the names...

At least it reduces the possibilities of being "dim chor xiong " as the "sui yen".

《〈夜宴〉〉观后感

在这儿我不会评到底这部电影拍得好不好。我不是专业影评人， 仅以平凡好吃懒做有事忙却忙看戏的鸟人观感禽受角度，抒发鸟人的情绪。

人心险恶。最毒的药亦比不上它。美丽的一面藏着狠毒的心；冷血无情的一角里裹着一滴泪水；纯洁的清白注定要被牺牲。结局是统统都赔上了，一个也没剩。

俩情相悦本是幸福的一件事。但一旦加入了第三，四，五，六者，没了。

父亲横刀夺爱，孩子的默默承受，妻子努力维持表面的和平。凹了一个洞，再挖一个洞来填补之前的洞。人的天性啊~

当情人变了妈，情会变吗？

叔叔是为了权，和女人而狠心杀害哥哥。

他是真的爱她吗？还是贪恋她的美貌，身段，抑或是要征服他呢？

女人是为了自己的爱情，放弃了自己，任叔叔随意游走在自己的身躯。当叔叔的真情与欲望往自己的身上缠，身心深处毕竟会有些些 的反应吧！
所以痛苦，所以矛盾。

爱却不能爱，这是太子的痛苦与寂寞。太子的寂寞是属于青女的。

故〈越人歌〉如是动听，叫人心酸。

今夕何夕兮，搴舟中流。
今日何日兮，得与王子同舟。
蒙羞被好兮，不訾诟耻。
心几烦而不绝兮，得知王子。
山有木兮木有枝，
心悦君兮君 不知

君不知

失去了，错过了，才知惜。

有些爱，错过了，就藏在心，算了吧！

被心爱的人当成另一人来蹂涅，是残酷的。

太子是自私。青女是自虐。

情何以堪？

皇后是残忍，对叔叔如是，对青女如是，对自己亦如是。可是她的残酷是时势造成的。
其实她是最可怜的。

心悦君兮君 不知，可是皇后的心声？

感动，是哥哥的心。哥哥的心里有妹妹，任谁都不可伤害！

说到底，使人的欲念。权，钱，名，利，熏昏了人的眼睛。看不清了，所以迷惑了。

一人当权，百人为一人之贪嗔痴而死。

戏内如是戏外如是。

几时才是梦醒时分 ？

夜宴，是盛宴，欲赴银月下的光彩，踏上的却是黑夜的凄凉。

Halal Food

What does halal mean to us- the non muslim population?

Does Halal = No pork?

It is not so simple. That's our misconception.

Today I had a lesson. And I learnt how shallow I am.

Halal food means food which is permissible by the Islamic law, from the farm till the mouth of consumer.

Hence the process how the animal is being kept,the prayer, how it is slaughtered, the processing of the carcass, the machine and cooking utensil that we use to cook the meat, the additive that we mix with the food, how the food is presented, contact of the food with halal material till it is put into the mouth of the consumer.

Therefore, we should bear in mind that if the animals are not slaughtered by Muslim with prayers using the halal way, as well as the utensil and ingredient that we use , we might not be able to serve our Malays and Muslim friends with the food that we prepare.

Another option?

Vegetarian food, I guess that 's the only food that we can share with our Muslim friend.

Boleh-land Kini

Today it's an odd post of mine talking about Politics.

I think it's really a time for those who always want to keep their hands clean of these to ponder about their attitude towards the issue.

We are part of it. No matter what.

We must be a thinker for country, the community and society that we are living in. I am not saying that we must be rebellious , but think and digest the decision that we make and are made to make.Yes, a follower is an convenient way, as less troubles we are getting in. However, in a democratic country, who are the boss? Who are the master? The people or the government?

The parties that we elect should be able to voice out the people's needs and lead the people towards a better future.

Now, the parties that we erect love to seal our mouth the power and "weapons" that we endorse them and lead their parties towards a better future.

Wake -up , people! In order to march ourselves towards a better future, we must take action!
Shut -up , you party-speaking people! If you can't speak like a man, just shut-up and don't embarrass us by talking like a retard!

How should a leader behave when the people are not satisfied?

Shouldn't you listen up?

It's just a march. A peaceful march.

Man, they are not bringing any weapons, bomb, knife , fire , gun etc to see you.

Just their mouth. Walk in peace. Maybe bringing in a bit of traffic jam.

They are not terrorist, nor riot.

What are you so frightened of?

If you are a justiced Government, why do you wanna twist and turn and beat the bush while facing the media? Why no local papers cover the news? What are there you wanna conceal ?

Perfectionist doesn't make a great man. Great men are those who admit their mistakes and correct their mistakes, in no time! What makes confession so hard? Is it because of the "face " thing? What's more practical and realistic?

I think this applies to the Government too." We can't be perfect, we can't satisfy everyone's requests. " Yes , we can't , but as we work harder , bit by bit, step by step, we'll improve! That' the point! But did you ever try ? Maybe yes, satisfying the greed and lust within those special VIPs.

Face really so important meh? Jaga muka tapi tak jaga maruah/ badan.
Boleh? What are we so capable of? capable of hiding our head into the sand like the ostrich? capable of fantasizing ourselves to be part of the outerspace while people are suffering from poverty?

We are so short-sighted as we only focus on the "one-moment" glory thing. After that one moment, what are we? Nothing but a joker to the outsiders!

Repent your sin and turn to the people!

Otherwise, people will leave you for a better future. And let those rats ruin your body.

People, don't believe what you see on one side. The local papers, the internet, the blogs, etc.

In order to see the whole picture of it, we must not focus on the same angle/ same view.





This is what they show us.














This is the whole picture .

Get it?

Youtube clips

It's almost the end of my finals. Time to loose myself and have some fun.
Here are few hilarious clips to be share with you. It helps to ease my tension. :P
Gambateh !

Kids today can really dance! hoho.. next time I want my little bebe bear to dance like those kids :P



Uncles can also dance! lol .. this is from Japan.. maybe guys will have goosebumps after watching it.. but it's really farnie hahaha



For those who loves cartoon, don't miss Mc Dull the piggie!



heading home this Thursday. Yahoo! Mommy I am coming home :)

blue gate crossing ost playlist

.爸爸今天不归家

曲：蓝奕邦
词：游思行
编 / 监制：蓝奕邦 / 李汉金

当我七岁 想揭穿你 她却只会忍
到十岁後 发现我没 亲切那触感
你不探一句 不听一句 只说别要问
我亦怕步近任何人

你听过吗 我好友家的事
其父相貌也不知 似套野史
爱赌博的 与欺骗的也太相似
城内数十百万故事
人人也是这样怎可介意

爸爸今天不归家
天边可否找到他
扮忙那个人 忙到我已不敢碰他
他爸爸都不归家
普天乌鸦一般黑吗
未来哪个叫我爸爸
我会肯争气吗

你听过吗 我损友家的事
床上每夜放张刀 叫你发指
也许有位严父曾共我也相似
谁令到父爱没意义
遗传那段往事可否告知

爸爸今天不归家
天边可否找到他
撞门那个人 狂醉到我不忍怪他
他爸爸都不归家
妈妈都撑得起吗
未来女婿叫我爸爸
我请你珍惜她
Daddy’s never coming home
Everybody’s going home
梦无法再寻 才要决心筑起个家
想讲一声多得他
方知怎麼当爸爸
未来哪个叫我归家
我劝他 不要怕

你所缺的爱 早教晓我 做人负责任
我现已没怪任何人

MSN fraud

This is a forwarded mail I got from a friend of mine.

There are lots of MSN fraud, and auto-transfer virus in MSN. Hence just hope you guys will be more careful.

Don't simply accept files being transfered to you on MSN, even though it sounds as if your friend is asking you to do so. It's better to reconfirm with your friends via voice call.

Also, I am really impressed by the "cekap n mesra" performance of our country's police-force.

How are we going to improve the country when everything regarding laws and enforcement is so messed up in the boleh-land?

Or rather it's boleh-lan (烂-滥-懒婪)

Guys! please beware of MSN fraud! Read on:

It happened around 1125am on 19th October 2007. When i was busy with work, a friend suddenly 'IM'ed me using MSN messenger. She used to be my roomate and i am very close with her. So, she asked if i could log in to maybank2u account because she couldn't. As I've tried, i could log in. She asked me for a favor saying that she owed a friend money and been delaying him very long and its kind of urgent to return the money and asked if i could help her to transfer money to her friend first and saying that she'll definitely bank in the money back to me after work that day. The amount she asked was initially RM800, but since i got not that much money in that bank account, she told me to wait as she will ask her friend if its okay paying him RM400 first. So, sensing some kind of emergency here, i without any hesitation (this friend once asked me to lend money to her the same way), I've banked in the amount to the bank account she gave me. The account no. is 1111-1428-6194 and the owner's name is KEW MIN TECK. Well, at the end of the day, after working hour, i still yet to receive any call from my friend regarding the money. So, i smsed her regarding the money. She was shocked about it and asked if she still owe me money. (We stayed together for the past few months, so, sometimes she owes me money for bills...)So, with the thought that she forgot bout it, i mentioned to her that she asked for my help to transfer RM400 to her friend first. With that, she's even more surprised and gave me a call. When i told her about it, she said it must be her email account being hacked already. (FYI - MSN uses email account to login) because she received This guy's number is a SMS from an unknown number saying that he's matthew and he hacked her email and asked her if she wants him to restore for her.012-2141405 which is a prepaid number. I was so shocked with the news and immediately went to Maybank to see if the transfer could be stopped. It was already 720pm at that time, offices already closed down. I've called the maybank hotline and they asked me to make a police report and bring back to Maybank tomorrow. So, i quickly went to the nearest police station and make a report believing that with the guy's bank account number and name, police force could at least track him down or get evidence on him for the crime he's committing. I told my friend to do the same thing and tell her to sms all her friends regarding her account being hacked. At the police station, there's this policewoman at the counter. She asked me where did i do the transaction and i told her at my office. she told me that i must go to another police station to make the report as that is not under their district. I was like 'huh?' However, i managed to make a police report. That policewoman did not even listen properly to the incident i was telling and she started to type on her own. Since she did not attentively listen to what i was saying, she got things wrong and asked us to write the story down. I was lucky that i got a friend to accompany me to the police station. (i don't even know where's the police station is... i'm a KL ppl in Penang now). Even though I've made a police report, the case wasn't open. To no avail, nothing has been done. The policewoman then called another officer (it seems that this officer has the higher rank) and he talked to me. I was asked by him 'why do i need the police report', the reason of getting a police report? (is that suppose to be a question? i wouldn't have trouble myself to lodge a report if i find it not necessary)By telling him that at least could get details on the guy from the bank, he told me to go to Maybank and get the guy's particulars and hopefully i could talk to that guy and it'll be good if he returns the money else, i'll need to treat it as a wrong investment. (wrong investment!!???) So, particularly, nothing has been done.

The next amusement thing about this is that, i went to Maybank as told by the officer the next day along with the police report and hope that i could get details on that guy. And the only thing that i found out is that they need an officer/personel to come along only authorised to view the details! (omg! how come no one told me bout it at the police station?) The guy in maybank was very helpful. He managed to help me check (i got a peep on it) about that hacker's bank account. To my surprise, there are alot of transcation to this guy account! Besides mine at 11.25am, at 11.30am there's another transaction (RM620) transfered to his account. There are several more. And at that moment, his account only left RM146! Doesn't it obvious that this guy is vigorously cheating others by hacking into other people's account? Since, nothing can be done without an officer/personel, with much despair i decided to go home. Just on the way back, i received a call from a friend from KL stating that the hacker the friend's email account to online again and now talking to him. That hacker uses the same tactic to him asking for help to transfer money using maybank2u. I asked my friend to entertain him to see if it is the same guy,same bank account number. So, when i reached home. I tried to talk to that guy again. He's using the same conversation again! (omg! doesn't he remember that he has already conned me?) by making it sounds like i'm talking to my friend, i talked to him again. So, as predicted. He asked the same question again and the whole lot conversations were the same. And without any surprise, the name and the bank account number is the same! So, i called the police station where i make a report yesterday to tell them about it. The policeman who picked up the phone was so rude. Then, i told him bout the incident and my report number and told him that this guy is in action again. And yet, another disappointment. The policeman said that there's nothing he could do as he can't get out of the police station and he then gave me a hp number to call. I called that officer who's responsible for this kind of cases but only got 'i'm busy at the moment. i'm taking some statement here' as the answer. My KL friend who got the whole conversation which of course, the same account number and the same name - went to make a police report and requested to open up a case for this. After waiting for 4 hours at the police station and listening to the policemen saying that there's nothing they can do, there's no evidence and a more ridiculous question thrown to my friend is "Berapa Ribu kau hilang?" (how many thousands you have lost?)

Isn't it the police's responsibility to track this fella down? And why am i the one suppose to get the particulars from Maybank? Doesn't he knows that we're not authorise to do any checking on people's particulars unless there's an officer/personel together with the police report only could do that? Why am i not told about it when i'm at the police station lodging the report? And isn't it the job of the police to get evidences on this guy who is doing the crime? It doesn't matter on how much we got cheated, it is still our money and furthermore, what if that i'm not the only person being conned here? Imagine, each person he conned RM400, so if he managed to con 10 people, that would make it RM 4000 per day! I am seriuosly being dissappointed with the act of the police force. It's as if they are imaginary since they claimed that they could do nothing about it. And these kind of crimes will continue and it'll be even worse as there's no action being take and these culprits will happily commit these crimes without being afraid of getting caught.

So, people! What you can do now is be more extra careful when you're dealing with your money. Always verify with the people you're sending money to, no matter how close he/she to you. And don't assume that your friend's/family's eamil account is not being hacked!

p/s: this is part of the conversation I got (the day after when he's trying to con me again) And I got to know from maybank that he's account is from kuching, Sarawak

Dolphin Cull in Japan

This is absolutely unacceptable brutal - cold blooded selfish and greedy act of human being.

The number of dolphin is decreasing drastically over the years.

Please stop eating Jap dolphin. Stop eating exotic food.

You can make a difference.

There are lot more choices of food we can consume. But not these beautiful creatures.


To those angmoh divers --- I salute you guys! This world needs more people like you.

You! yes You! Tell ya mama and papa don't eat sharkfin also!

:P

给自己的醒句

淡定有钱 剩。
就算没 得剩，
上帝睇住我。

所以奇迹会出现在我身上。

奸人坚的笑声。。。 。。。
哈哈哈哈哈哈

老衬哈哈叫三声
你阿妈v哇喊三声

PHARMACOLOGY TOXICITY AFTERMATH ... ...

Eevet's dinner

Dinner of today~ Sarawak instant noodles with baked bean , eggie and corn .

Sarawak mia instant noodle, sponsored by my housemate ... I called it instant mee , as it is cooked very fast-- throw inside the boiling water and 2 seconds it is done!
No, I don't know what it's called . It's true that you can only get the noodles in Sarawak.
That is not the right way to cook the noodle (with baked bean). According to the supplier aka my housemate, the noodle is best to be mixed with oil, with fried onions, and soya sauce.

As usual, I dumped what I left in the fridge to the pot ...

The noodle is not fried , unlike the other instant noodle. It is dried. It tastes a bit like "min-seen", another type of noodles or meesua in hokkien, which my mom used to cook with the ikan bilis soup. It absorbs the sauce quite efficiently , hence I think it is nice to be served with "saucy" "juicy" dish with a superb nice gravy.

The corn aka jagung is sponsored by another housemate.. from the research garden that she is working in.. no.. not GM food, kay!

Who say I don't take care of my diet? Nah! Prove ! kay! I got corn as my vege, egg and bean as protein source , and noodles as carbohydrate. :P blek~


If you know the best way to serve the noodle , tell me ! tell me! It's Sarawak Instant Mee!!!


hehe.. NOW TIME TO EAT!! SLURP SLURP!